seral spaces
This is a thing I started back in Jan 2025.
I had problems, and I was tired of outside solutions (i think i was allergic or smth). So I fixed them myself in a couple weeks by pacing around to music in a pitch-black underground room beneath my university dorms for 8 hours a day, with a bottle of Soylent on reserve. A running theme is an attempt at redigesting my whole life around furry and neurodiversity. It's ordered newest to oldest.
(I fed my brain by reading some books and browsing wikipedia in there too. the material was only tangentially relevant.)
I'm still trying to convey what I set in motion for myself during that time, all while keeping that motion alive.
I felt very fragile at first, like a collection of delicate slivers recrystallizing out of ether. But I'm getting more and more okay with this information existing out there. I mean, I always was, but I used to interpret "out there" as out in the void rather than out in the open. My comfort expands my vision of occupiable spaces, myself confident that the buffeting winds will shape my growth over making it break.
As for how it's going... my diy conceptual antihelmintic is targeting the right brainworms, so you don't have to worry about your cortex necrosing like mine. dw, I have many other more benign ones to share. Diversity and balance is the key to a healthy symbiosis with your brainworm ecosystem :3c
If you think you have interesting thoughts on anything, feel free to send em to me. Do keep in mind that I may be touchy about the contents in here, as they are me trying to move, after all... so try not to stand in the way as I tumble through the grass.
This journal used to be guarded with a more hostile attitude. It's here if you'd like to see it: